it’s always like this

December 5, 2009


Filed under: perfect strangers — notsojenny @ 9:38 am

i don’t normally post on weekends but i was walking my dog last night and was just completely overwhelmed.  i’m not sure if it’s my hormones or what but by the time i got home there were tears streaming down my face.

i’m not sure what it’s been like where you live but the weather here has not been what i call “seasonal” it’s been very mild.  57-67° every day, rain sometimes, nothing crazy.  but the sky at night, oh it’s just been gorgeous!  and i LOVE the sky!  i know that’s a bizarre statement but i do.  sunrise & sunset mesmerize me.  and a beautiful nighttime sky often causes me to walk into things because i can’t take my eyes off it.  some nights this week have been pitch black, crystal clear, and filled with twinkling stars.  other nights have had the perfect amount of clouds for ambiance surrounding an enormously full and glowing moon.  the other night there was even a moon dog (which i like to call moon-boob because lets face it, that’s what it looks like).  i even woke M up to tell him about it when i got inside, it was so beautiful!

and last night, last night was no different.  the sky was this perfectly dark navy blue color, with wispy clouds that reflected just enough light to glow a greyish pink and still not hide the gigantic orange moon.  it was breathtaking really.  maybe i’m a sucker for nature, i dunno, but i love this kind of beauty.  the kind that can’t be captured by a photo because it’s all around you and not being able to take it all in, to see the crispness, to focus on the twinkly stars peeking in between all of the clouds it just looses so much.  it’s really awesome, in the true sense of the word.

and as i was soaking all of this in i was also taking in all of the activity around me.  peeping in the bay windows as i walked by houses to see families at the dinner table laughing, other families with their heads down in prayer before they eat.  noticing the house at the end of the cul-de-sac with boxes piled outside and bright lights and empty windows throughout, seeing the couple inside obviously talking about what to put where in their new house.  waving to my neighbor who was up on his roof in the dark finishing up the christmas lights so that everyone could enjoy them.  watching men in uniform haul their bags out to the car while their wives load the kids in to head to the dock so that the whole family can say goodbye at the last possible moment before deployment.  watching others in uniform load their cars all by themselves, no spouse and kids to break their heart while they leave to protect our country and the wives and children of their fellow soldiers.

and i’m just so thankful for all of this.  for every moment.  every single thing.  thankful that there are these people, these completely dedicated, selfless people who are willing to protect me.  to protect my loved ones even though they don’t know us.  so many people who leave their family and friends to make sure the rest of us don’t have to.  they leave so that i can continue to walk my dog and just take in the magnificence of a night like last night.  so that i can enjoy such a gorgeous sky rather than worry about my freedom, my safety, my life.  thankful for the families who no doubt pray for these selfless soldiers before their meals, pray to keep them safe and bring them back home to their wife and kids, their neighbors.  thankful that there are so many amazing people out there that make it possible for us to put up christmas lights, to have that freedom of religion, that freedom in general. 

i’m always the one out there chanting “USA!  USA!”  but everything i saw, everything i felt on that walk made me so grateful for the world i live in.  for the country i live in.  it’s so easy to take these things for granted 28 out of 30 days a month.  we just get so wrapped up in our daily lives and that’s not wrong but i’m just SO GLAD that we live where we do.  that we have the things we have.  and that we’re now in an area where i can’t go anywhere without passing people in uniform, it’s such a great reminder of WHY my life is as amazing as it is.  and i’m so thankful for so many things, big and small.  and thankful for nights like last night that make me realize that.


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