it’s always like this

October 6, 2008

not to worry

Filed under: perfect strangers — notsojenny @ 2:22 pm

it’s not just you.  i’m sick of my mood swings too.  sometimes i think i won’t bitch about it anymore, but then i remember that that’s why i started this.  i had a bad day on friday.  i had a good long heaving crying session in the shower.  i haven’t doubted him/us in a long time and it was hard.  but the minute i saw him i knew how i felt.  i couldn’t figure out why i doubted it at all.

i started a million posts this weekend.  unfortunately they were all in my head and as soon as i got to my computer i forget each and every one.

so here’s a good ‘ol fallback style list…

  • DSW is good… or bad.  i returned a pair of shoes i bought online at the local store.  they told me how much money i was getting back on my card and i started to argue with the girl at the counter.  she just didn’t get it so she called over a manager.  i kept trying to tell them i had used a coupon when i purchased the shoes so i didn’t pay that much for them.  they insisted that they had to give me back the full price… there was no way to override it in the system.  whatever.  i made $6 in that return but now i feel perpetually guilty.
  • M has agreed to check out locations and start the planning.  ring or no ring.  we’re getting this show on the road.
  • i contemplated many career changes and even going back to school this weekend.  we thought of many businesses that we should be starting.  we have yet to move forward on any of these things.
  • i discovered that UPop is back on the air!  but was it really necessary for Avril Lavigne to cover The Scientist??  i’m not even a coldplay fan and found this totally absurd
  • i’ve come to terms with my fleeting fascinations.  i get involved in something and then decide “this is what i’m meant to do!  i’m going to do THIS for the rest of my life!”  uhh… yah, until i start doing something else next month and come to the same conclusion.
  • i’ve alway known that Cheesecake Factory served a great chicken salad sammy, then i found out they had a mean strawberry shortcake and now i know they have an awesome guacamole!  who would have thunk it?  now if only there wasn’t an hour wait any time any day
  • i have 2 apples at M’s and i’m kicking myself for forgetting them.  oh how i could go for one right now.
  • i’m waiting for my sister to send me pictures from the trip so i can do my post about wedding dresses… yay!

hope everyone had a good weekend!


  ~ today i learned… an average yawn is six seconds long. ~



  1. This post made me want the following things:
    1) To go shopping at DSW. I think I need black flats.
    2) Guacamole. Life is always better with guacamole.
    3) Grad school brochures. Before settling on Barbie’s stylist, I thought about why it was that I didn’t get my MFA in non-fiction.

    Comment by stealthnerd — October 6, 2008 @ 4:25 pm

  2. glad you’re feeling better : ) It’s easy to doubt, but I’m happy to read that your confidence and good sense has gotten the best of you.

    I do the same thing with blog posts in my head. All. The. Time.

    Comment by magda — October 6, 2008 @ 7:47 pm

  3. I find that the shower is the best place for a good cry.

    Comment by DanceintheRain — October 6, 2008 @ 7:54 pm

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