it’s always like this

August 25, 2008

hot pants

Filed under: growing pains, maybe it's me — notsojenny @ 9:58 am

as you age your irrational fears change.  that’s not to say that if you’re afraid of sharks and clowns at 5 you won’t be at 35.  but your fears in life seem expand, to change, mature even.  for me the fear i’ve recently acquired is all around babies.  i’m afraid that i’ll never be able to have them.  the fear used to be that i’d never find someone to have them with.  but i’ve got M and that fear melted away a while back.  and i can’t wait to have babies with him.  but even that led to more fears.  M is 9 years older than me.  how long can men make babies?  i’m sure it’s something i should look into, google even.  but i haven’t.  all i know is that as women get older their chances go down.  so add my increasing age to M’s old age and i’m so scared that it equals trouble.

another fear for me is once M and i start to “try” (i love when people say that, it’s such a classy way of saying “we’re having TONS of sex!”) that it won’t happen.  and then i’ll find out someday that i can’t have babies.  the thought of that really bothers me.  because really it’s not something you know until it’s too late.  and i’m not even talking about not being able to because of my age, but maybe just because of my body.  what if i’ve got lame ovaries?  or a uterus that refuses to cooperate?  these fears don’t keep me up at night but i hear them in the back of my mind some days.

so when i read this articleyou can imagine it only freaked me out even more.  (for those of you too lazy to click it’s a study about how laptops can make men infertile when used on their lap, it contains a flagrant overuse of the word “scrotal”).  i have a laptop on my lap at least 4 days a week… sometimes more.  and M uses his laptop alot too.  and he’s been doing it way longer than i have.  it’s stuff like this that makes me want to start trying to have babies just to make sure we can.

sure, that’s not a great idea but i am so Type A and i need to know these things.

  

  

~ today i learned… how icanhascheezburger was born. you can too! ~

Advertisements

3 Comments »

  1. I didn’t even know “scrotal” was a word. Thanks for that!

    Comment by apollocreed — August 25, 2008 @ 11:10 am

  2. I worry about stuff like this too. In fact, I’m pretty sure I’m the only person in the world who still is worried that my deodorant is going to give me breast cancer.

    Comment by brandy — August 25, 2008 @ 3:44 pm

  3. Men can have babies into their 70s or something outrageous. Unfairness? Um, yeah. Not that I’d want babies at 70, but I think that kind of disparity encourages the very wrong relationships between 20-somethings and old fogies, where children result and you KNOW they’re just there for the inheritance. But moving on.

    I worry about this, too, but there comes a point where you just have to trust that it’s going to work out, one way or another. You’ll be a mom and you’ll be marvelous. Just don’t test it out till you’re ready!

    Comment by magda — August 25, 2008 @ 9:51 pm


RSS feed for comments on this post. TrackBack URI

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

Create a free website or blog at WordPress.com.

%d bloggers like this: