after really looking into all the places i want to go for a long weekend i decided i wanted to go to Ocean City, MD. the deciding factor was mainly being able to stop in to see my family and visit my dad. so after i decided what i wanted to do i talked to M to make sure he was up for it. he was all in. so then we started to talk about when and decided on memorial day weekend. even though we’re only going for 2 nights we’ll still have a day to be home and kick back before going back to work, i liked that plan.
sunday night i started to look at hotels but M wouldn’t let me book anything because he had to “check his schedule”. what a joke. if he has anything happening on a weekend it’s typically with me so i knew it was going to be fine. and there was a hotel on the boardwalk that i really wanted to book. so monday he gave me the “all clear” to book, and of course that hotel was gone. so now we’re staying off the boardwalk, which is livable i guess. as long as i get my thrasher’s fries and fisher’s popcorn i’ll be a happy girl.
attn: boys, yes both of you… you’ll want to skip down and begin reading after the section in stars (girly stuff… not girl talk, Stuff)
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so last night i started thinking about it and realized we’re leaving next week. and it instantly hit me. that’s a bad week for me. i don’t have plans. but i’m on my placebos. i hate taking a vacation when i have it. it’s bad enough that i practically have 3 out of 4wks of spotting anyway. does anyone have any suggestions? i’m on loestrin24 so i have 4 days of placebos and they’ll start on thursday, we leave on friday. i know with OTC and other pills i could just skip the week of placebos and go straight to the next pack, but how can i do that with only the 4 days? do i need to skip a week? or just the 4 days? i’m so confused. and i always get nervous about it because i can not end up pregnant before engaged. it’s not allowed. i’d love to hear any suggestions! and i’m pissed because i can’t pack my favorite white bathingsuit : (
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so then i started planning out the details of the trip. friday we’ll both cut out of work a few hours early and get into OC late at night. we’ll stop for dinner somewhere along the way. saturday is all beach all day… and we’ll definitely do rides too. sunday morning we’ll spend the quality hours at the beach, leave around 1 and head to my family’s hometown. that’s when i started to get unnerved. the thought of introducing M to my extended family almost makes me nauseous. i hate to introduce them to someone that may not be around in a few months. i feel like it’s just silly. there’s really no reason they need to know him if it’s not for the long haul. afterall, i don’t expect that many of these relatives will be alive when i do finally get married (i know that sounds terrible but it’s true), and even if they are most of them won’t travel. so i almost feel like it’s a tease to introduce them. the only guy that my sister ever brought by was her now husband. and i’ve already stopped into town with a guy i was dating at the time. granted it was about 9 years ago, but still, i don’t want them to think i’m a hussey. and if i were M i would feel awkward about meeting the extended family of someone that i haven’t decided i want to marry. but really, i can’t drive through this town (which we have to to get to the beach) and not stop. i never get to see my family. and they all live within a few blocks of each other so it’s too easy.
and honestly, having him with me when i go to visit my dad may possibly anger me. i don’t know if i’ve said this before, but M didn’t come to my dad’s funeral. it’s a story longer than what i want to write right now but it still upsets me. and i’ve never told him about this grudge i’ve been holding in the back of my mind about it. in a couple of weeks we have the annual pub crawl where we always stop and he visits his dad in arlington, so i know he won’t mind me stopping with me… but i might.
we’ll have fun even though i have all these issues, i just wish they weren’t issues at all. oh well, for now i’m going to start packing. all white. okay, not allwhite, but a lot of white. i know it’s technically memorial day when i can start but i feel like i wait so long for it that i usually start that weekend. so i’ll definitely be wearing white on sunday and monday. saturday is bathingsuit and coverup only so no worries.
i can’t believe it’s next week already.
~ today i learned… the british always considered the french to be rude, that’s why “pardon my french” refers to saying something vulgar, acting as a frenchman would ~
