ah the bail out bullets

• as i was unpacking the other day i came across my winter make-up.  you know, the stuff that’s almost see-thru it’s so white.  i’m not quite there yet but i’m starting to blend it with my less-tan makeup
• i also found some tan-time makeup… must be from years ago.  i can’t remember the last time i was that tan.  it makes me feel sad and old.
• i rip up my neighbors grass every day.  different yards each time.  when my little puppy dog goes poop in their yard and it’s too liquid to just pick up i just grab the whole clump of dirt & grass with the bag and rip it out.  not sure if the neighbors will be thrilled about this but i figure it’s better than leaving doggie diarrhea in their yard.
• i happened to go into The Loft this past weekend and was THRILLED to find the pants i’ve been pinning over for months!  they were $49.50 the first time i almost bought them.  then they went on sale for $39.50 and were buy one get one 50% off.  i caved that time but all i wanted was the grey pair and no store i went in had them.  this time i happened to wander into the store and found them for $18.88!  i kind of wish i bought them in other colors too but for right now i’m very happy (and wearing them : )
• i’ve been obsessed with grey items since this summer.   i’ve been trying to find a grey purse for the past 6 months.  i just heard on TV that grey is very “in” this year.  why do i always feel like i’m ahead of a trend and then it catches up to me rather quickly?
• i FINALLY changed my driver’s license name!  it’s official.  i can use my credit cards and everything that’s been piling up with my new name on it.
• the lady at the DMV had to take my picture 4 times… apparently i wasn’t standing “straight”, i wasn’t looking at the camera “right”, etc.  what a pain in the ass.  the cool thing is that i got to keep my old license : )  
• anyone want to pay top dollar for a fake id?  just kidding.  i remember when that was actually a viable thing to do though.  ah youth, those were the days.
• i hate that my body butter gets more expensive every year.  i wish other people didn’t like it so much that they could keep raising the price but that it was still liked by enough people to keep it around.
• M and i haven’t ventured out to find a mexican place yet… i’m kind of afraid.  i miss our old mexican joint.  it’s so easy to find bad mexican, that’s not what we’re looking for
• i’m taking my dog to a doggie dermatologist.  i had no idea this was even an option.
• why is it that the longer you’re at the vet/doggie dermatologist the more expensive your bill is?
• the weather guy on tv in my new city has scary cheek bones.  i mean they’re sharp looking.  like giving him eskimo kisses could be deadly if you slipped.  he looks like a disney male lead.
• i wish i could just completely stop watching Say Yes to the Dress and reading my favorite wedding blogs.  i keep coming across wedding dresses that i really really want!  i know i don’t get a do-over on this but i can’t help but keep seeing dresses and thinking “yes, that one.  that’s the one i want!”  hopefully i’ll find some events i can wear them to sans train.
• i am so excited to go to Richmond next weekend!  haircut, eyebrows, and getting my ring cleaned.  i really hope M opts to go with me so we can enjoy some eating out too.  maybe mexican?
• i accidentally forwarded all of M’s family’s mail when i set up our forward to our new address.  i feel bad because now all his mom’s mail is coming to our house.  i really need to get it all in the mail to her but i’m just busy… maybe tomorrow?
• open enrollment is the biggest load of BS ever.  they release all the new benefits info to us and we have 2 weeks to decide what the heck we wanna do.  i hate it.
• i have no plans for this weekend.  zero places i need to be or things that i have to do.  we’ll probably spend the weekend unpacking, cleaning, straightening up but i’m looking forward to doing whatever i want.  whatever that might be.
• based on everything we still have to do with the house, and the holiday plans, etc. we should be able to kick back and enjoy a weekend by February 2010.  i’m not kidding.
• enjoy your weekend folks!

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~ today i learned… Yahoo is short for Yet Another Hierarchical Officious Oracle ~

i love you man

i love M for so many reasons.  these are just a few…

he’s so patient with me when i get upset about something simple like screwing up a recipe and i pout up and down that “it’s RUINED!  there’s NO Fixing It!  we’ll just STARVE!”

he gives me the time i need to talk about something that is bothering me, he doesn’t poke and prod unless it’s necessary

he knows when it’s necessary to poke and prod to get something out of me.  something that i obviously want to talk about but just can’t figure out how to bring up

he understands me when i’m not making sense, which is fairly often

he’s calm in a crisis.  it’s nice to not be the one having to hold things together.

he makes a casual aside comment when we’re at the Clinique counter to keep me from walking out of there with makeup that makes me look like an ass.  i used to get all the way home with it before i ever realized it on my own.

we have adult conversations.  we can talk about our issues in the relationship and i never worry that it’s because things are “bad”

he’ll go to the opera with me.  when i approached him with the idea of getting season tickets i thought he’d laugh and say “have fun” but he goes.  and he’s great about it.  plus he looks so cute on these date nights when he dresses up.

he loves his family.  and much like mine, his family is small and tight.  he doesn’t like the idea of moving because he wants to be within driving distance to his mom.

he uses being close to his family as an excuse not to move, but when i get on his case about how he never takes advantage of it, he doesn’t get mad at me.

he doesn’t get mad at me when i get on his case about anything really, he’s a patient man

he loves rollercoasters too.  and he’s a thrill seeker like me.  heck, the man took me skydiving for my birthday!  he’s so much fun.

he doesn’t care that i make jokes about him being so old.  he doesn’t even care that every other month i try to talk him into dying the greys.

he cooks.  he’s a great cook.  and if he’s cooking something that he doesn’t think i’ll like, he makes a toned down version for me.

he’s dealt with my crying and pouting about wanting to marry him for a very long time and he was never scared off.  stressed out, but not scared.  and he married me anyway.

he’s never worked in food service a day in his life.  but he always tips big.  as a former waitress/barista/ice cream scooper/bartender i love that.

he loves my dog.  i love when he doesn’t know i can hear him and he’s talking to the pup, my favorite is when i hear him, from the other room, say “what up doggie?!”

he loves me.  he loves my family.  no matter how crazy i am/they are.

he understands just how crazy my family is and how i have to deal with them to stay sane, and he reminds me and reassures me that they’re definitely more crazy than i am.

he’s great with my nieces.  for a man who’s wasn’t even sure he ever wanted kids he was always been awesome with my nieces, the outgoing one requested a piggy back ride the second time she met him and he obliged without even blinking.  it’s one of my favorite memories.

he’s so intelligent and good at things that i have no clue about.

he understands that i’m competent and always lets me try something even if i have NO CLUE how to do it.

he puts up with a lot of me ‘encouraging compromise’ when it comes to the new place and all of the decisions about it.  he always does it with a smile, even when i’m requesting that we compromise on not putting his thing up.

his first priority is making me happy.  it’s not my first priority, but it’s his.  and really, i never thought i’d meet someone else who wanted me to be happy as much as i want them to be happy. 

he’s so awesome that i could write this post for hours and hours and still not even begin to touch on the magnificence of M. 

he loves me.  and i love him.  there’s nothing more perfect than that.

 

~ today i learned… Google paid $900 million to be Myspace’s serach provider ~

nothing more than feeeelings

one of my favorite elements involved in our wedding and wedding planning is the video.  i mentioned before how much i’ve been looking forward to seeing it and the minor crying fit i couldn’t control had when we were shooting our interview.  what i haven’t mentioned is how much fun it really was and how much i took away from it.

you see the videographer we booked wasn’t just any old wedding filmer (is that a word?).  this guy makes awesome wedding docu style videos.  i know, i know, how trendy.  but seriously he’s EMMY NOMINATED!  and we splurged on this, we totally splurged because we were both in love with his product.  we went from saying “we don’t really need a videographer” to watching his clips and saying “we NEED to have HIM!”.  and i’m still anticipating the final video.  i realize that such great works take time, i’m totally willing to wait.  plus at this point we’ve seen all the pictures so there’s nothing left to anticipate about the wedding… until the video is complete i at least have that to look forward to (wedding wise of course). 

so one of the parts of the wedding video that i’ve been looking forward to the most is the interviews.  i CAN’T WAIT to hear it all!  to see what everyone else has to say!  my family was interviewed, his family was interviewed, our best man and S were interviewed.  and it’s not some “what advice do you have for the bride and groom?” cheesy interview, it’s in-depth questions to get people to talk about how they feel about us, our relationship, memories they have of us.  and i know i’m not really explaining this well but i’m SO EXCITED to hear what people have to say.  because in my world i don’t get to hear these things.  i mean how often do your mother and sister tell you what kind of person they feel you are? their favorite memories of you?  when do they honestly talk about how great they think you two are together?  okay, maybe some families do that but mine doesn’t… we’re SO FAR from that i can’t even begin to explain.

i hadn’t even really thought about this element of the video being so important until M and i did our interview.  and as i’ve said before, i cried through it.  for 2 hours i teared up every time i began to speak.  i couldn’t help myself.  because for the same reasons it was such a great experience.  there aren’t many times you sit next to the person you love and they go on and on about what type of person you are (at least how they see you), what they love the most about you, reminiscing about first dates, first meetings, how you they felt or the words they remember about such important moments in your relationship.  it was really amazing to hear those things.  and if anyone ever has the chance to do such an interview with your loved one i HIGHLY recommend it.  i can’t wait to see what comes out of the interviews that makes it into the video, just to have those feelings on tape, those detailed memories that may some day fade in our minds. 

just hearing that stuff alone was awesome and i can’t wait to see it all!  especially once it’s clipped together with the moments from our wedding day!  i am looking forward to seeing and hearing all of it over and over again whenever i feel like putting the DVD in.

 

 

~ today i learned… the average Facebook user has 130 friends ~

try and try again

i keep trying

i keep coming up with partial posts in my head

i keep saving draft versions of unfinished thoughts

i just can’t seem to get it done

i’m not sure what it is.  i know it’s a combination of being so busy, being unmotivated, being lazy, and whatever else i am.  but i just can’t seem to get the posts out right now.  i’m still reading, and commenting, and still loving all the blogs i look forward to.  but i don’t seem to have any drive to keep mine up to date right now. 

i have so much to write about the house – all the repairs, all the redecorating, all the hassles and the enjoyment of trying to create a living space Together.  all the compromise and the bouts of arguments about stupid things like shot glasses or giant fortune cookies. 

i keep thinking about all the ways i view life differently now.  how much has changed in the past few years and so much more in the past few months.  and yet it’s all realizations while i’m driving, or walking the dog, or doing something else that isn’t sitting in front of my wordpress admin.

i’ve had so much to say about the pain in the ASS that is changing your name on every single thing… and how NOT easy some places make it.  but i can’t seem to find the drive to put the thoughts into typed words.

ugh, i hope this slump passes.  i love my blog.  i hate neglecting it.  i’m just not feeling it. 

maybe just starting here is what i needed.  maybe this’ll be the kickstart to get me going again.  we’ll see.

i’m off to save some more drafts

tiiiime is not on my side

as you’ve probably noticed i’ve been pretty busy lately, too busy to post

and completely unmotivated all at the same time

things are just nuts.  out of the normal kinda crazy.  everything is up in the air.  i’d just like a normal life, that’s all, just something other than the last 6 months of randomness and chaos.

i want our house to be in order.  heck, i just don’t want to unpack another damn box. 
i want to know where to go to get my eyebrows done, i have no clue right now and they’re starting to take over my face.
i want to have the time to find a cobbler so that i can get my fall/winter shoes recapped and stop click-clacking around like a horse.
i want to have time go to replace my makeup that is dried up (so i can stop pulling eyelashes out trying to cake it on) and cracked out (i’m sick of squishing together the tiny beads of powder to have enough to get on my face)
i want to go shopping!  use ANY of my non-Lowes birthday giftcards.
i want to put back on the weight i’ve lost in the last 3 months… partly so my fall clothes will fit
i want to get my period again.  yah, i said it, i’ve been so damn stressed that i completely missed it last month (that and the weight loss thing)… and i did get a negative pregnancy test, otherwise i’d be curled up in a ball still crying and not typing a post.
i want food in the pantry and the ‘fridge.  i miss having snacks, hell i miss grocery shopping!
i want our brand spanking new dishwasher to work again, we’re waiting on a replacement part already and i’m less than thrilled.
i want to have time to drive around our new city and figure out where everything is and what the heck is here.
i even want to have time to do laundry in our cool new washer/dryer set.

there are so many things i want to be able to do!  and mostly i just want to be in a position to have the time/energy to do them!

 

 

~ today i learned… honey is the only food that doesn’t spoil ~

doggymomma’

i brought my puppy (my 12yr old puppy) home from my mom’s this past weekend.  he did well on the 8:30hr drive to VA.  i wasn’t sure how it was going to go but it was good, as in he didn’t shit in my car.  the trip was quite lengthy beyond the time it usually takes simply because we had to stop several times to keep said car-shitting from happening.

he’s been really good since he’s been here.  i had some concerns but overall he’s been a completely different (read: obedient) dog than he is when he’s at my mom’s place.  she treats him like a kid, like a spoiled rotten kid.  and he’s totally cool being treated like a dog.  apparently he doesn’t need to sleep in the same bed with you with his head on a pillow, like mom swears he does.  he doesn’t need to be given all sorts of cheap shitty for him dog food and a day full of treats, like mom swears he does.  he doesn’t need to pee and poop on the living room floor, like mom swears he does.  he doesn’t need to bark incessantly until you give him part of the burger you’re eating, like mom swears he does.  he doesn’t need to have the doors closed or be held back when you open one, like mom swears he does.

he’s totally happy just being in the same room with me and M, even if that means lying on the floor and not the couch.  it’s taken a few days to break that habit but it came easy.  he’s eating the food i’ve changed him over to with no problem, sure he’s not as crazy about it because it’s good for him but it’s all he gets so he’s eating it.  he’s house trained, he always has been… even house trained dogs can’t let themselves out the door to go to the bathroom and yet they have to go somewhere.  he barks sometimes when i have food, but a quick “quiet!” shuts him up, that and after the first couple of days he’s started to realize barking at other people eating gets him nothing.  he’s even taken to the bed i bought him for the crate, we’re still working on the crate itself thing.  he even just sits at an open door, waiting to be told it’s okay to go through it rather than bolting out between your legs.

he’s been great.  he’s definitely chilled out more in his old age, and he doesn’t act like the “senior” that the vet classifies him as.  he’s spunky, and cute, and kinda smelly at times but i love him.  and i’m happy to have him around since i’m usually here and lonely all day every weekday. 

and he looks like Falcor when he sleeps (okay, you can’t see it too well in these photos but you get the point, i swear he does)

  

~ today i learned… dogs get allergies just like people, and apparently they’re really bad down here in the South East ~